Do you know what the hardest four words are for me to say?
"I trust you Jesus."
No matter what.
I trust You.
Even when it is painful.
Even when it is frustrating.
Even when it costs me something.
No matter what.
I drew that line in the sand along time ago when I put my faith in Christ. Now I just have to live by it.
Moment by moment. Day by day. Hour by hour.
How many millions of times have I read... "Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding."
I just didn't need it before now.
"ALL your heart." Even the parts that hurt. Even the parts that are scared. Even the parts that are selfish.
He is the God of the universe.
I am not in control. Of anything.
He could be moving mountains right now without my input. He could be rolling back oceans without my knowledge. He could be changing hearts. He could be healing sickness. He could be making the sun stand still in the sky. He could be raising the dead. He could be working on circumstances that I can't even begin to imagine.
I say I believe it, and now I have to live it.
I will not take matters into my own hands.
I will not rely on my own strength.
I will give up the illusion of control.
I will cry out to the Lord.
I will stand in His promises.
Through my tears, and my fears, and through my gritted teeth I will tell Him, "I trust you."
I will seek His face.
I will trust no matter what.
He is always faithful. He is always good. He is taking care of me.
Dang. Love it.